This has to be done in English – sorry folks!
Year 2025 was a bliss, I fully owned that year. I’m not saying it was perfect. It was tough, but I was prepared for it, so I am satisfied.
– This year brought us ankle-high socks, and these are so much better than the previous trend. Let’s take a moment to appreciate that.
– This has been a year of completing things. Some of that means decluttering – you should see my pantry! I can’t even recognise it, I have only a handful of spices that I am looking to get rid of. Even my bookshelves start to show empty spaces! Okay, I did also buy some more watercolours, some fabrics, oh, and a sewing machine. But even hair products or cosmetics – there is a certain degree of bliss that I feel, when I think about how little things I have. That also meant getting rid of relationships that don’t nourish me. Keeping things for the sake of being able to afford a label – why on Earth would I want that? Or being the only one putting the effort in, to the point of exertion. I did purge more than expected. Sometimes I get worried. I know hoarding is a sign of insecurities. But isn’t decluttering a sign of trauma or something? I’m still hopeful it is a byproduct of yoga and psychotherapy.
– I didn’t travel as much. But I managed to squeeze in a visit to the forest in which I spent one summer singing and laughing and eating fudge stuffed doughnuts. They don’t make them anymore, so I may need to learn to make them myself. It was the last chance to go there, I may add, as the manager is retiring and there is no management plan for the property whatsoever. But the forest lakes, or any lakes for that matter, have always been soothing to my eye.
– I went to Poznań, such a beautiful city. Okay, maybe it was just beautiful to me, as I indulged in my favourite activities: reading books, eating pastries in local coffee shops, talking to strangers.
– I visited my relatives in Dubai. That was an adventure! Okay, it wasn’t. I did write my Bachelor thesis about the economy of Dubai, so I know this place well enough. And despite that, I still find it very, very boring. A lot of things that are a result of throwing a lot of money at, extremely dusty and quite dirty, filled with really boring people of similar characteristics. I think I would much rather entertain myself in Jordan or IDK, Kenya? Even Egypt, full of all-inclusive and Russian tourists seems more interesting. The most amusing was a barbecue at night, on a dessert. How entertaining can a BBQ be? Yeah, that much.
– I started managing my studio’s social media account on my own. As time goes by, I enjoy it more and more every week. It may not be perfect, but at least there is no AI featured.
– As I didn’t appreciate the [XXX] I decided to [XXX]. I felt well during the entire undertaking, the procedure was smooth. It was also very surprising that [XXX] so chances of future [XXX] are very high. It did cost me an arm and a leg, but my entire attitude towards [XXX] completely changed. One less thing to worry about.
– Tried online dating – it is getting worse and worse every year. I think it isn’t working. May need to get myself out there, and start meeting people in the real world.
– I admit for most of the year I was badly sleep deprived, so I also decided to [XXX]. This is still work in progress, but I know it is a good move to make. I already picked up [XXX] and all. Ehhh there is so much stuff that still needs to be done!
– Now, I know yoga has been a bliss for me, but I also can see it is not a complex system. As they say, yoga is not therapy, it is therapeutic. It is not a workout, but helps to stay fit. One must also do other things. And as such, I will. I have some ideas that I’m trying to work through as we speak. I must also admit I really appreciate Oksana Hrywińska. Poland needed such a hero! Esp. after being flooded with disgusting greedy showladies that would sell you any lie for profit.
– Oh, by the way, brainspotting came to the rescue when some old fears started creeping in. Actually, that’s how I discovered meditation. Okay, I have been trying to meditate for several years now, it never seemed to have worked for me. Now I can see the real difference in before and after. EMDR is such a powerful tool. It took years of preparation to get here though. If anyone else is struggling to meditate – keep trying! That’s how you build these brain muscles.
– I miss my yoga tribe from Dublin/London. Urban Tribe has a community of its own – they are so kind and open hearted spirits. It was my plan all along. Teaching yoga is never about the teacher, it is all about the students. We need to be physically active, we need to be learn how to be conscious, and we need to belong. Only then we can squeeze some of that healing in.
– Some of my expat students said that I am offering “the best English Yoga in Warsaw”. I haven’t seen many other teachers in person, and I am sure there are some at least praiseworthy. I am certain there are also much better practitioners than me, those who can do fancy asanas long enough to have a picture taken. What I know and can be proud of is that I offer my students attention. Each of my students is unique – they come with their own set of circumstances. While I always come to my class prepared, I almost always end up changing my sequence a little bit – to match the energy of the class. Maybe this is that thing they value so much? I make them feel SEEN.
– Two more yoga teacher trainings – the TCM supplement to Yin with one and only DomYin. Check him out if you are ever interested in world class yoga in Polish. I also finished Bernie Clarke’s yin yoga training, and I was really impressed by the quality and quantity of good informative content. And such a clarity in communicating! I may not agree with everything taught by the Yin crowd, but certainly it was a revolution of the yoga standards in its own time.
– Every teacher needs a teacher, and I’ve finally found mine here in Warsaw. And I’m genuinely glad. I can already feel progress in my practice. At the same time, it’s been a bit too intense for me, especially considering my concerns around yoga, my ongoing treatment for anemia, and the overall physical load I’m carrying. I’ll admit it has been mentally challenging as well. If Lucybloom taught me anything, it is to question everything. And question I will, though that’s never the easy path. I’ve never quite fit with Polish culture or its communication style, and that adds its own layer to the experience.
– While treating my autoimmune stuff, it became apparent I have to sort out my blood stuff. While taking injections several times per week is no joy, and the need to take a lot of pills certainly does not spark excitement, I have never seen my wellbeing improve so much. It took what, 4 months to almost rid of the naps.
– I’m off to Ireland next week. It took me a bit of hesitating to make that call, and I decided to go for just a brief moment – just to complete another Teacher Training, with Lucybloom this time. I might catch up with a friend or two, but seriously, I think I’ll just sit there by the canal, with my flat white from One Kinda Folk and just sigh with love. And freeze myself, as January in Dublin is savage. It’s probably a sign I need to create some new good memories elsewhere.
– Final weeks of 2025 were a struggle. Maybe I overdid TRE, or maybe my brain finished processing what had to be finalised after brainspottingm and decided the remaining stuff is SERIOUS. Or that I’m simply bored. Safe to say, it has been tough. Also, still hate Xmass Eve, though the rest of the festival is fine, as long as I stay sick, in bed. It is my tradition of sorts! Haha.
– After my last class taught this year, some of my students exchanged their impressions about this year being tough for everyone. I feel grateful – despite the toughness, I was well prepared. Of course I would like some things to be easier, and there are certain areas of my private life I would like to develop better. Also, astrological summary for 2026 I received today feels like a warning!
New Year’s resolutions? I want to get used to my coffee without milk. There is no good milk that goes with coffee in Poland.
I want to get in better shape, declutter some more, improve my winding down routine, take more pictures and socialise more.
Someone said recently, that young people should drink more. It is not about the alcohol itself, but about going out and meeting new people. I couldn’t agree more. Alcohol helps to create memories, do stupid crazy shit and have stories to tell. If possible, I will try to socialise without alcohol (I started the year sober), because I want to make it sustainable – and the booze is not sustainable for me (costs money + I like it too much). But meeting new people? Yay!
I am heading into 2026 now. I am in a great need for change, in many dimensions. Some changes are already under way, others are yet to emerge. I am already feeling the shift, and a surge of energy, that needs to go somewhere. Not sure what that means yet, but the path will reveal itself as I start walking.
So let’s walk.
